Day One: Why the Fart Should I Care?

     I'm 26 years old, in the prime of my life, and I'm told that I'm bi-polar. When I think about it, it makes sense I suppose. I was taking Lexapro and Ativan for a while, ending up with a dose of 2mg of Ativan, three times a day. It was like a band-aid for what was really happening. All of my anger, depression, happiness, etc., was only being subdued by a gigantic portion of benzodiazepines. I was eventually prescribed, in addition to the aforementioned drugs, Trileptal. This drug made me go insane. I was mean, sad, and rude.

     Yesterday I saw my psychiatrist, and she completely changed my medication. I was put on 300mg of Lithium, once in the morning and twice at night. 1mg of Klonopin once a day, and Hydroxyzine every 8 hours to help with the transition off of Ativan. I'm also prescribed Abilify, but the pharmacy and the doctor apparently have to do some sort of ritualistic dance so that I can be given this medication. Because of such, I am unable to take that as of now.

     I thought it would be important to blog about this experience because I found such a lack of reliable information while I was researching Lithium. I also wanted to have something my psychiatrist and therapist could see, and wanted to put something out there to help my family and friends understand what I'm going through. So here it is: my 30 day journey with Lithium.

     I woke up late today, my day off. Joey wanted to go to the gym, and so I obliged. I took my doses of lithium, hydroxyzine, and an EpiBurnPro. I really pushed it at the gym, and felt like vomiting after about 30 minutes of rigorous exercise. Afterwards, Joey and I bought some tequila for Cinco de Mayo, and went shopping to make a Mexican dinner.

    I snapped angrily twice this morning, but have been relatively docile since I took a Klonopin and Hydroxyzine. I took my bedtime lithium, and am trying to finish the new episode of Game of Thrones. If I fall asleep, I'll be pissed. I probably need to sleep, but a girl has to have priorities. And right now, John Snow is that priority.